Now I know the prettiest face is unknown until you take off the mask,the best feeling is unexplainable,the worst pain is on the inside,and my biggest fear is losing my greatest love.



I hear your voice saying the words you left unsaid my troublesome feelings swimming in the dead my head turning into something undefined my heart beating with an unrhythmic rhyme so i hear my screams cry out an unknown screech and never again shall i hear that unworldly heart beat.

In every light there is dark.With every care there is hatred.Every mended heart is breakable.In every nice person there is loathing.Within you there is kindness.Within me there is pain.Within pain there is tears.Within tears there is sorrow.Within the sorrow is something unpleasant. Within me there is depression

In the light of the day fears go away but in the dark of the night pain and fear takes flight.

Im surrounded by black and red frozen breath is in my head and i am no longer meant to wed for after tonight i will be dead

My face laden with guilt and depression sits among the cheerful and joyous why am i living if death is so near?

I turn to you with intense affection how can i be alive in the greatest depression?

The girl by the water.

Her finger gently lays on the water as her eyes trace the ripples around it. The thumb of her hand rises and falls to the beat of an orchestra playing in her mind. Orchestra playing she plays along by humming the tune. From note to note she traces the ripples as far as her eyes let her, wondering how far they really go compared to how far her eyes will see. Much farther, she assumes. Softly, she lifts her hand and drys it on her long gray dress, a twitch across her lips. The water now is stagnant.

Why act up?

I can only imagine it's harder to be careless than to be worried.

Inexpicable beauty of a nothing.

when it all restarts...who will i be. i'm practically in tears....and that seems so strange. To be weak yet find I'm strong enough to lead others...to not be able to explain the need to sleep my body finds even though it has seemed to have gotten more than it ever has. My aching hip, pops out of place every time I get up...I don't understand why, don't really care. Burned my tongue, don't care, at least it'll stop me from eating as much. Maybe I'll lose this plump belly I'm developing...didn't think I'd develop anything...apparently I get fat too. How depressing. Called dumb by my math teacher, called uncoordinated by my piano teacher, called many things, no explanation for any. Feelings hurt now, ignore them. Dreams continue, pushing them to the back of my memory. My mind used to feel consumed in thought, staring in a blankness comparible to a zombies. Agression, faster. Spelling, confused. Grammar, lost. Thoughts, slowed. Changes I can see, none...yet didn't I just list many. Confusion, yes. Communication, little. Hyper, until I pass out. Slow&old music, much. The attempt at putting a smile on my face, much. The want to be beautiful, inexplicably great. I'll fix beauty first, in three months I'll be nothing but a robot and I think I'll like it. The vast knowledge of a beautiful dictionary suddenly becoming me. I promise I'm never going to fail myself.

Promises

I promised I'd be there.
forever and ever I always will stray
I never try to betray
Your soul sliced in my caressing hands
The guilt a burden beyond any other



My sleep still goes effected
Love only ended by the ceased beat
My heart remains to pound
Yet some how...I've lost no one-
but shivering,cold hearted, brute, unbeautiful self.



The bird snatches the prey,
Many animals die every single blood pouring day.
Still do I unwillingly stray
The amount of guilt for wrong, swelling
I never meant the frustration consuming me.


The beauty of a rose
Never fully comprehended by our unworthy eyes
The glimmering crimson of death
Also seems the resemblence of love,nurture
Come to me with all meanings, rose.

I'm writing unexcusably crappy today as my mind is not going beyond the thought of one person. All those kinda make sense now don't they?

Expository

In english we're writing expository papers which in case you didn't know is pretty much a paper where you explain stuff. Sounds exciting right? The teacher read a practice intro of mine aloud and I blushed so brightly, I could feel my cheeks turn crimson when she announced who had written it and read it. Anyways, here's one of my practice intros.

To many people, the word beauty brings images of famous woman and men, loved ones, or a blooming flower to mind. Although many people only see beauty in appearances this isn't the only beauty. Imagine if you were to ask a blind person what came to mind when the word beauty had escaped your lips. What would they think, what would they say?

Shakespeare

We're studying shakespeare a bit in school. I love his writing. So far this is my favorite still and it was the first one I was introduced to, it's sonnet 116.
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

I hope you like it too. Re-read it, it really does soak in more and more each time you read it.